It’s funny how people can affect you long after they have left your lives. Last night I had a dream about my ex husband, in case you haven’t read earlier posts, in short form he was a Paranoid Schizophrenic Alcoholic Drug Addict (mostly pot, but near the end was into coke and crack). If you notice the past tense of that sentence, he is a was; died of a heart attack a few years ago. The dream is rattling me more that it should. It is just one of those dreams that seem to stick with me.
I don’t remember many of my dreams, when I do; they are usually pretty weird, nothing bone rattling like this one is trying to be. He is dead; I need to let it go. My Ex Mother in Law is dead also, and I have NO contact with the Ex Father in Law, and the Ex Sister in Law is still in jail awaiting trial, and thus have no contact and never plan to. I googled her today and found she finally has a trial date for late 2013. (She deserves to be there, for a murder of her ex, and I hope she stays there for a lot more years.) I am very happy to be rid of any contact with that family, slightly sad about EX MIL, but it is what it is. So why is this dream sticking with such a bad feeling?
Sounds like those relationships could have been quite traumatic. I'm not surprised to hear that you're feeling unsettled on waking.
ReplyDeleteI don't tend to remember my dreams either, but every once in a while I'll wake up crying from one and have a hard time settling back down. I think it's just one of those things.