Well, today my wife was trying to get caught up with my blog. She came across this post Pinnacle Pregnancy Point. The main comment was about
Today is the day I find out if my body is ready for me to become a mom. (My mind is still in debate.)
She was worried I am not on board with the pregnancy any more. That I had kind of gotten on the pregnancy train, and now I couldn’t get off. That isn’t quite what I had meant.
Am I worried about getting pregnant; yes.
Do I still want to get pregnant; yes.
You can see the debate that happens in my head which prompted the sentence above.
One fear I have about becoming pregnant is gaining too much weight and ending up on bed rest because my body won’t support the extra weight. That is the one fear that is above and beyond the usual pregnancy fears of miscarriage, diabetes, birth defects, not being able to get pregnant, toxaemia, Crohn’s flaring up, asthma getting worse, allergies getting worse (the last bunch, I’m hoping it follows other trend of getting better.) and the dreaded morning sickness. My stomach used to be fairly iron clad, used to take a LOT to get me to puke; now I get queasy a lot quicker. We have a few pregnancy books, which I’m sure will instill a few more fears, but I still want to do this.
I will admit, reading the blogs that I have, has helped get over the initial fear of even trying, and seeing the end result as to why we do this.
Are two main ones I have read.
The next fear is one, I hope most people share, “Will I be a good mom?” My wife is sure I will be, and I’m positive she will be, but still worried I won’t be. Not having maternal instincts kick in, not trusting what to do. But the end argument is “you won’t know until you try.”
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