#169 hCG? (01/23/13)

Well, yesterday I went for more blood work.  From Friday to Tuesday my levels went from LH 10 > 4 and Progesterone 5.6 < 30.  So timing something didn’t quite work for catching the positive OPK’s properly.  The clinic recommends next month I do follicle monitoring ultrasounds and use the hCG (human chorionic gonadotropin) Trigger Shot when the time is right. 

This does increase the possibility of twins I think. This is does make for me being a bit more nervous on this, but I think it is worth it.  The amount of stress I’ve had peeing on three sticks at a time to see which ones work for me, and to try and pinpoint my ovulation has been hair raising.  HCG doesn’t guarantee twins, nor does it guarantee pregnancy.  Just helps things be a bit more relaxed about the process I think. 

One thing is for sure, Deb will have to give me the shot (if I don’t get it at the clinic), as I will not be able to give myself the shot.  I’m too nervous about needles.  So next month is hopefully the first go at this, which is the next step to this long process of getting the TTC journey started. 

From what I have read though, it does mean I can’t take a home pregnancy test early because it will give false positives.  I will have to truly wait the two weeks, or until AF shows up.   

Does anyone have experience with hCG shots?  

#116 Donor Update and Random Thoughts (08/16/12)

Our choice donor has had 34 babies, as mentioned before.  The new information is 18 of them are girls and 16 are boys.  So a pretty even split gender-wise.  Also, the other news is, only one set of twins.  The twins are probably due to fertility drugs of IVF, thus this may help my twin thoughts calm down a little. 

Yesterday, due to the doctor update, it seemed old habits die hard.  I stress ate a lot of food during the day, and had a non healthy dinner.  It was only by luck that we ran out of time to be able to have desert.  Over eating, under watering, and bloating starting, the weigh in tomorrow isn’t going to be good. 

My wife thinks I write too much, but for me it is like being able to catch thoughts before they are gone, as well as articulate my thoughts, as verbally, I don’t do well.  Even after I’ve written about my thoughts, if you ask me to tell you about them, they are ether gone, unless I read them, or I just can’t really tell you without referring to my notes as such.  I would make a horrible public speaker. 

I’m doing better in general about the stress of the doctor follow up on Monday.  Still a little stressed though.  At least we are doing something about the problem instead of ignoring it.  As for the pain in my leg, I am coming to think, somehow, it may be tired to period related symptoms.  I’m going to monitor the frequency, and what not over the next few months and figure out what it may be tied to.  We have ruled out Sciatica in the past with back X-Rays.  Might still be the end result and not quite caught on the x-rays, but I’ll see if I can track the pain and when it is worse and better. 

#114 Twins on the Brain (08/16/12)

When I was with my ex husband, my main excuse for NOT having kids was “What if we have twins, we need to be REALLY ready.” (He was a twin.)  Now that my wife and I are this close to actually trying, the twin thought is popping in my head again.  Twins don’t run in my family, nor do they run in our donor’s family, but it seems that isn’t 100% fool proof of not having twins.  Our fertility doctor suggested not taking Clomid. (It is the usual fertility drug that stimulates ovulation, when getting IUI.) Because we are theoretically ovulating naturally Clomid only would increase the chance of twins, or eek the thought triplets. 

The idea of twins seems to be constant vortex of that would be neat with the smooshy feeling, and HELL NO, that would be too much on the first go round.  On my wife and I’s wedding night, a cousin of mine wished us to have many kids, and the first set to be TWINS.  She had her first set as twins and loved it, and then continued to have a total of four (maybe five, forgive my memory).  As a note, I did say twins don’t run in my family, and this cousin is not technically blood related.  If you have any belief in the concept of putting an idea our there for the universe to bring to you or who you wish it upon, then you can understand where my constant thinking regarding twins is coming from. 

Is this a normal, I want to say obsession but that seems too strong a word, thought?  So far I’ve read a few blogs of lesbians trying to conceive, but none of them have covered this nagging thought.  Maybe I’m just getting ahead of myself; we haven’t even gone in for the first round of IUI.  We are getting closer though.  In the end my wife and I will tackle any hurdle the universe throws at us.  Please let the limit be two-three if this is our challenge.  Our wish is for the baby (ies) to be healthy, and we will be doing everything in our power to help that come to fruition.