Do you ever feel like there is just too much going on? Like you are juggling and you start with one ball, then add another, and anther. Three balls not too bad, but then more keep coming, you keep adding to the circle of balls you are juggling until you feel if anything else comes at you everything will come crashing down.
Crohn’s is somewhat new to my life. My mom lived with it from her 20’s and in the end died from a spinoff of the disease. It is funny though, it never seemed to be a topic of discussion in our house growing up. I knew she didn’t eat green vegetables as they hurt her stomach, and a few other things here and there. She occasionally had to have Boost meal drinks on top of her meals to help boost her calories. Over the years she had multiple surgeries to remove pieces of her intestine. I’m pretty sure she was on prentizone to help manage the crohn’s. Even though I lived with someone majorly affected by crohn’s all of my juvenile life, I don’t know much about the disease, probably more than the general population, but not much. Now that I have it, (one juggle), my Virgo self needs to research it (two juggle).
In the attempt to lose weight (three juggle) in order to get pregnant (four juggle) my wife and I are eating healthy, which is helping for the diet requirement for Crohn’s which was suggested, basically eat from the Canada Food Guide, and minimize animal fats. Originally I didn’t think that was much of an issue, but my wife brought up the question “Does that include dairy and eggs?” In our house that is a major source of protein. Thus we may have possible major changes in diet (five juggle), but at the very lease tracking my diet through My Fitness Pal back to a higher degree of accuracy to get a better view of my macros, including the vitamins I take to make sure I’m getting the nutrients I need, especially for when I’m pregnant.
Also along the trying to get pregnant list, the polyp is the next issue (six juggle). Not a major thing (hopefully), but still something bugging my noodle.
Then we have the general living category, learning to can fruit and deal with a mass harvest (seven juggle). My job, thankfully isn’t that stressful, but does occupy a fair amount of my day (eight juggle), preparing the house for before I get pregnant (pre nesting), like personalizing the master bedroom (nine) organizing our storage (ten), clearing out non essentials to make room for baby stuff (eleven), preparing for the cruise (twelve). That is a dozen things up in the air right now, some more stressful than others; the last one a good one, but we’ve never been on a cruise so I don’t know what to prep for. This is all stuff that is either a have to deal with or really want to deal with but I’m feeling very overwhelmed. I just feel I could sleep for a week to let things settle in my head then have a game plan. But for the most part, everything is happening as it happens. As long as the dozen juggles doesn’t turn into a baker’s dozen before the cruise, I think the cruise will give me the much needed rest from the regular day to day to come back with Vim and Vigor to attack the next thing that needs to be dealt with.
